2019 and also my second IT decade has been finished. Time to look back.
General 2019 Summary
2019 turned out to be a very special year for me. Big changes in my family: the youngest started to go to school, biggest became an adolescent, I was a LOT away. Accordingly my deepest gratitude goes to my husband. I am so grateful to have him! We built this family, we follow personal dreams (without help from a side) and still manage to be a loving couple.
Professionally the biggest move this year was my decision to quit my volunteer activities. Over years I supported so many, that I forgot to take care of myself. I am deeply grateful to people who supported me on my way to make this decision.
2019 I turned 40. Which is only a number, but I really like that number. This year feels in many ways as a milestone, I have accomplished several longer epics. It feels good. I am enjoying achievements and looking forward to new beginnings.
With published 2 blog posts more than 2018, I achieved 42 in total. I did not blog during our summer vacation and most of the autumn I did not stick with my 1 post per week blogging challenge. Anyway numbers went up nicely.
At the beginning of 2019 I set up a few things that I wanted to improve (readers, UX, schedule). I changed several things on the website, but I am still not pleased with categories, I will continue to experiment with it.
About the readers – I still have no idea who you are, if you don’t leave a comment, tweet (thank you, Lisa, for your feedback and encouragement) or email. So I decided to stop to pretend that I write for you. It is up to you if you find something useful here, if not – internet is huge, keep looking and you will find… something :).
Third thing – schedules – was a really good idea and helped me a lot to overcome writer’s block. I will keep it in 2020, but set the bar lower. New challenge to publish a blog post every two weeks. I am also very happy that I reduced my drafts from 36 to 10 blog posts in the pipeline.
The 4 most read articles were (title / views):
What is new – the most of my readers came to my blog via search engine. I was thinking to move away from WP, but this is strong argument to stay (I have no idea how to do SEO on my own).
This time not only a year has come to the end, but a decade as well. Decade in which I learned a ton! I worked in 5 very different companies, participated in many projects and learned a lot of inspiring and some destructive people. I decided to write a summary of the years with lessons learned:
2010 learned how to stand up for myself at work
2011 that cool title doesn’t automatically mean cool working environment
2012 learning to be a manager, but also took communication training and understood how determined I am and that it could be not a good thing
2013 my mother passed away… I learned how big part my mother took in my life (I was living aboard already for many years). I always will be thankful to my bosses who supported me in that hard time – I learned different faces of help and support.
2014 learned to live with grief
2015 learned to work in a testing team as a member
2016 re-learned that I cannot work under bad leadership
2017 first lesson of Letting Go; how to be full time trainer
2018 learning about failing/ accepting failure as part of learning process
2019 second lesson of Letting Go; I am important
Every year, usually around my birthday, I set new goals. Sometimes I achieve them, sometimes not. I realised that in cases when I did not make it, mostly happens because my resolution was too vague or too big (sounds so familiar in agile context…). So I am thinking about staging goals. What I can improve immediately, in the short term (like a month) and long term (could be a year). Since I became a trainer I panicked from time to time that I don’t have any long term goal. I was thinking to choose it as my 2020 goal, but I realised something else is more important for me: joy. Since kids were small and I was building up my career, I have become so tense… My youngest loves Mamma Mia! movie. We rewatched it in holidays. There is episode where girlfriends ask Donna what happened? she used to be so fun. Donna replies: I grew up. Tanya: Well, then grow back down again!
I really need to grow back down.