Weeks after Agile Testing Days were pretty intense. Every week another training. Business as usual? No. I do not know why… was something in the air or was it my students, or myself. We tackled agile and dig really deep. To experienced and guide it, made me very vulnerable.
To learn means to leave comfort zone and to realised that what we did so far was not OK. Learning can make you feel big discomfort. That feeling is not a good feeling, so sometimes to get it go, people turn the anger to the messenger. Trainers and coaches need to learn how to deal with it. Another thing next to anger is struggle. I see struggling people, who want to be really agile, not only on paper, but they have no idea how to do it in their environment. Sometimes I do not know which situations are harder – anger or struggle, but definitely since I attended Agile Couch Camp this summer it is easier to deal with situations like those.
Week before Christmas I had a group of people who had especially big emotional debt. No matter which topic we were discussing, it went back to the old stories about orders, ignorance (from managers) and silence (from employees because it does not matter if they say something). This group was special with another thing – there was one of managers sitting with them. She is one of the new managers, who joined the company not so long ago, but still – a manager. First day she was all about denial. Everything, what group said about bad practices, missing communication or management, was not true. On second day she started to listen and at the end of the day she said: “now I see that we have communication problem”. She realised that to talk or to share ideas is not enough with people, who were misused for a very long time. They do not believe you and they listen to something else. On third day the manager was missing for the first part of the day. I used the time and asked the group to reflect on training and how the manager reacted. It was interesting to observe that they collectively realised that maybe there is real change coming. The training they got, the manager, who listens when they complain and reacts when she realise something wrong. I felt very privileged to guide them through this moment. Felt like real transition to new level.
At the very end of the training group asked me for tips how to stick to ideas and how to keep agile spirit vivid. Maybe because of approaching Christmas or because of this something in the air, this time I chose to share story of my own vulnerability, my own struggle and my own insecurity and my tricks how I keep going and where they could look for tools what would help them to create a positive agile habit.
Sometimes giving a training can be exhaustive… but I still like it.